Portal to the Vortex. Journeying from the heart. ⁣ ⁣ Do you know that point of a graph just before a meteoric rise?⁣ ⁣ No really...I just went on a 45min Google tangent to find out the name of it.⁣ ⁣ But that's how my mind works. Sporadic bursts or foratious excitement, a passionate delve into whatever creative out let my spirt is enthralled upon in the moment. ⁣ ⁣ Though sometime those moments are too short lived to see any fruition. It's as if I was given a bag of magic seeds and frantically planted them all over the yard but never watered any enough for that magic beanstalk to grow. ⁣ ⁣ Maybe it's magic...maybe its manic. Maybe the magic is in the manic, but that's another topic, this is about a point, that specific point I still don't know the name of. The point of the point is this. ⁣ I've been oscillating on this wave between uncontrollable infinite bliss and extreme doubt and unworthiness. Life's picture show reflected that. One minute I'd be on a 160' ft yacht and the next I'd be on booking.com looking for the cheapest room I could find for the night. My art, and the appreciation of that art was the same too. A great sale or 2 and then nothing...for months. ⁣ ⁣ Recently my friend @iamdougakin put me onto this book "Existential Kink" by .. it's basic premise is that in BDSM kink, people get off on things they normally don't like, therefore we can use that same behaviour to get off on things we don't like in life. Thus taking the power away from the shame/guilt and allowing oursevles to feel free and end those patterns. ⁣ Holy shit did my subconscious ever love to dwell in feelings of kinky unworthiness. Now that I've allowed the pleasure hidden in those kinks to be felt I've finally hit the inflection point. ⁣ ⁣ Yep that's the word I was looking for. To wrap this up. I'm excited to share so much of this magic to come in this stratospheric rise of love and creative energy.⁣ ⁣ Whether that's music, fashion, art and/or the #newearth just know that however it expresses itself, it'll be a creation from my heart. #2022⁣ ⁣ ~~~~~~~⁣ Outfit: Designed by me @saffronandsamadhi 📷: ⁣@bluedreamvisionary 📍: @myslmarrakech