six years ago today I made my Broadway debut and my life changed forever - but I was also completely lost and depressed. Don’t let appearances fool you. I was really young, wanted to please everybody and thought I had to be superhuman at all times. I was living in extreme fear. Deeply afraid to let everyone down, and scared to lose what I had dreamt of / worked for. I held myself to impossible standards, refused to eat, became obsessed with being “perfect”, “enough” and “worthy”. I was new to the city and felt like I had to prove that I had earned my spot. It was a 24/7 performance and I was killing myself in the process. I was constantly self medicating and self sabotaging. Anyone close to me who remembers that chapter knows I was a mess- and thank you because y’all have no idea how much I needed you. I thought “who am *I* to be in this position!?” The highs were so high, but the lows were so low it gets blurry. I’m really proud to say that’s no longer the reality. You *can* do what you love and not lose yourself in the process. I look back and am grateful. Because yes, I’d do it all again in a heartbeat. Tonight I get on my second Broadway stage and celebrate the fact that we have come so damn far. We aren’t perfect. And tbh thank god for art because it helps us learn and connect and heal and grow ....and all that jazz. #quesiga xx