I feel consumed by my eating disorder. It’s all I think about almost every moment of the day! Binge eating is a coping mechanism that started for me in childhood. You can say it’s my first coping mechanism, my oldest one. It’s the one that’s been the hardest to let go of. I feel myself filled with anger wanting to keep holding on. Food soothes me, it comforts me, it’s my safety, my home and I feel enraged being in eating disorder healing groups because it’s being threatened, it’s being activated and I’m not coping well. In fact, my binge eating disorder is completely out of control. If I’m being really honest, it was easier to quit smoking and heal from some of my dr*g addictions then trying to heal my ED. But, first I will sit in this discomfort because I am worth doing the work for! 📸: @youbymia