woke up this morning feeling so tender and emotional and grateful for the friends i have made here and for music ~ i’ve realised so deeply music is the only world i can live in, can survive in (despite the industry side of things), i’ve tried to live in others but i don’t make any sense there. moving across the world a year and a half ago mid pandemic was one of the scariest and craziest things i ever did. it was so destabilising and i barely knew anyone in nyc apart from maybe one person well (shahzad ❤️) i can’t believe how lucky i am now to have some of the most kind hearted talented genuine deep friends and people in my life. most days i stupidly think my heart can’t break open any more, surely, but it does - from fear and also love... lately it’s been from a lot of love, from meeting new people and diving in deep, and for deepening in music, my own and in others’ things change so quickly these days, time seems to be streaming and disappearing through a strange portal, and i know that just like the hard times, the good times don’t last forever either... so i’m resting and soaking in these moments whilst i can, despite staring into the great unknown. thanks to those of you here in this sphere for being on the journey with me, it means so much to me 🌚