These are a few of the beautiful art handlers responsible for building and packing all of the crates for my work. . I shipped four shows this summer—NOT including INDEPENDENT. . At one point during the summer we moved all of the works for my show @kasmingallery from the studio they’d been built in, into a shared studio space in a 9,000 sq ft building that would allow me the space to complete the work and get the work out of the doors IN the crates. . At some point this summer I kind of lost my mind for connection to anything other than making the work, answering what emails i could 1 day a week, and caring for the animals. I don’t know what happened except to say that I was as single-minded as I’ve ever been. I’d stopped understanding *time* at all. It’s like my mind began to protect me from being able to fully comprehend what *time* meant, and how *time*and physical capacity worked. There were entire days when light would seem to shift in a bowl around me, and I was a wholly separate shape from the outside world. everything about me was angled towards being healthy enough to work and to complete work. The last 6 weeks of building I began to order 7-day boxes of frozen raw juices and superfood smoothies. I’d sleep in 4-5 hour chunks. I’d come in before dawn and sleep again for 4 hours in the hottest part of the day. I never lost my shit. But, i did let down a lot of people who i truly just couldn’t get back to. I am sorry. There were times I’d actually attempt to do other things besides walk the dogs and go to the studio, but my body would sort of automatically drive me right back to the studio. I’d make peace with this. . I prayed a lot. . I began to play music really loud and dance- hard- in the studio. . The leader of the art handling team was SO kind and thoughtful. He’d always make sure I was fully ready for the team to come in and pack. They respected me, the space and the work. One very hard day, jordan looked at me and said, “you look like you need a hug. Do you want a hug?” I really needed a hug that day but I didn’t take one from him cuz I felt like I didn’t have time to cry and I wanted to cry so badly. . The show opens tonight. Comments—->