The first time I saw you wasn’t the way I had imagined it my whole life. Barely getting an arm’s reach to touch you, wondering if I’d ever be able to hold you in my arms. My labor was not how I imagined it. It didn’t progress, I didn’t get to push you out like I had hoped to. Your first bath was not how I envisioned it. The smell of CHG still haunts me. We couldn’t breastfeed, so I had to pump. Your perfect body and skin was poked and prodded from the moment you were born. Your scars all over your body prove that. Nothing was normal. The only thing that went right was me being your mom. The honor and privilege to hold you and laugh with you. I love you and I hope to make you proud. I want you to know that I’ll always fight for you. You are my everything. I am who I am because of you. #njmom #toddler #toddlerlife #toddlermom #familyfun #sixlittlebabespresets #funactivities #familytime #familyadventures #heartwarrior #heartmom #cardiac #cardiacarrestsurvivor #HLHS #apraxia #autism #awareness #acceptance #mother #son #mothersday #mothersdaygift #hospital #medicaltrauma #love #motherson #mylife #mom #reelsinstagram #reels