One month. One month and yet it still dose not feel real that you are gone but I am still so empty without your presence. One moth and I haven’t gotten to talk to my best friend. I never thought you would loose this battle not a single doubt down to your last moments when I was holding your hand I still thought you would somehow figure out a way to pull it off. I will never be the same without you big brother. I will forever look up to you and forever fight for you. I will sit here every night no matter what I will think about you no matter what hoping one day I will get to give you the biggest hug. Apart of me is missing that I thought I would never loose but I will not let that determine the man you will make me to be. I know you are here with me and I know you are watching over me love you buddy miss you more than anything.🕊️