a note to ellie: “it took me a while to bond with you —to make a connection and appreciate you. i was so caught up in the idea that i wouldn’t be enough for you. i was too worried with grief and preparing the funeral of my past self identity. i believed you were the thief of my life. but i was wrong. your whole being was perfect for my life. you forced me to grow beyond my career and the degrees that were plastered on my wall. you you forced me to love you—so precious and sweet. it is you i would rather share my talents with. it is you i would like to explore every corner of this world; because it is only you that knows just what this heart sounds like inside of me. i love you and you’ll always be my special little girl. happy seven months ellie.”-love, mommie 7.21.19 1:54pm . . . . . . #motherhood #blackmotherhood #blackmomsblog #journaling #selfreflection #notestomydaughter #storytelling