Chris, accepting that you’re gone is something I’ve struggled, cried & simply refused to believe since we got the call. I was just with you. We were just laughing. We were just talking about our lives. Our plans to make more memories. I keep telling myself this is just some horrible nightmare. Tomorrow morning you’ll be coming through the door saying, “Hiii I’m home mom & dad!” Yet each morning I wake up, check my phone, see someone post about you, and reality hits. You aren’t coming home. That I won’t hear your voice through the halls of our place. That I won’t be coming down the stairway to see you play with Lanai, kissing her — telling her how much you love&miss her. I won’t see you making Cindy laugh in the kitchen, or hear another hilarious story in the dining room. There’s going to be a lot of firsts that I’ve already started to feel that make it harder and harder to be in this disbelief that everything is okay & that today is another great day because I knew we’d talk, or see each other. The house feels empty without your laughter, your jokes, your energy, your light. Every corner I turn I’m reminded of you, and it’s because thats how much of an impact you have on people, on me. You are such a special soul Chris. You are able to make anyone laugh when they were sad, feel loved when they were lonely, comfortable when they were guarded, driven when they were hopeless, and so much more. You are the definition of memorable. You made our friendship so memorable. I’ll never forget our bond Chris. You showed me what friendship could be when I was hurt and guarded again. You brought me back to a place that I thought I wouldn’t be able to fully return back to. You did that with your light, support & unconditional love. I’m grateful that we were able to tell each other what we meant to one another. To call you one of my best friends. Cindy & I love you so much. We miss you. We have you in our thoughts, and everyone that you’ve impacted with your amazing energy. P.S. Chris, I know we never got to have the dinner to meet Jake, but we met Jake, and mom & dad approve. 🖤 “I love you, say it back!”