Happy Mother’s Mom 🤍⁣ ⁣ I don’t know why I thought today would feel like any other day but I am so sad and I miss you so much more today. Today I would have sent you flowers from the local flower shop in Portland, ME like I did every year and write you a letter. You saved almost every card and letter I wrote you! I’ve been up since 6am reading the letters we would write each other. You saved nearly everything I wrote you. I do feel you all around me and it means the world to me that I have these. I was born the day after Mothers Day in 1992 and you tell me every year I was the greatest gift ever. Yet you were the greatest gift to myself and my older brother and sister. We simply had the best mother in the world. ⁣ ⁣ Grief is just so fucking hard though mom. It does come in waves like everyone told me and it’s just odd. I don’t know how else to put it and I know there isn’t a right or wrong way to feel but losing you is the hardest. I even feel a sense of guilt. Like I should be honoring you in a more profound way because that’s what you deserve. I want to hold fundraisers for your non-profit Survivors Speak and find the organizations for pulmonary fibrosis research and hold fund raisers. I will get there. I will I just need a little more time because I’m still so sad. I’m an incredibly strong person but today I am giving myself grace. To feel all the feelings and emotions, to not apologize if I start shedding a tear out of nowhere. My heart is so heavy but I’m still leading with joy. Because mom, you are JOY! I’m so honored to be your daughter, mom. I love you and miss you so much! Thank you for everything!⁣ ⁣ Love you!⁣ Anastacia 🤍⁣ ⁣ If you have the means please go to the link in my bio to donate to my mothers Non-Profit - Survivors Speak USA in her name. Survivor Speak is a Maine-based, survivor-led organization working to end sex trafficking and sexploitation through centering the experiences, healing, voices, and leadership of survivors. It is an organization my mother founded in 2015. She worked passionately on it until very her last breathe.