grief. it’ll leave you breathless on your bathroom floor. it’ll leave you gasping for air because you simply can’t stop crying and your head won’t stop spinning. it’ll leave you smiling in the middle of no where because a good memory came up. it’ll leave you talking about your situation even if you don’t realize it. finding out that someone I considered my childhood best friend, caitlyn, passed away was one of the hardest things i’ve ever had to take in. I remember clear as day us playing on the play ground at our brothers baseball games. I can still hear us talking about how we are going to be actresses on tv because we both had the same dream at the time. or all the birthday parties you came to and all the endless days in preK when our mind wasn’t on anything but who could get on top of the monkey bars the fastest. it’s extremely hard without you here, but I happened to open my camera roll the other day to a picture you had taken on my phone. (the last picture in the post). I knew then that you were always going to be with me. that your crazy, fun spirit and smile would always be with me and that it was my turn to live it out. I pray your spirit runs through everyone and our smile never fades because yours sure didn’t. I miss you caitlyn and I love you forever in my heart🤍💙 #LLCP