Tour is over (if you want it) Over the years loads of people have asked me, “Why aren’t you famous?” or “I don’t get why you’re not more successful!” Sometimes they say it like it’s a compliment. Others sound concerned. I used to get triggered in these moments, when my ego had more of a stake in the game, because I felt like I was being criticized for not working hard enough. In fact I can remember sobbing similar sentiments on many a late night huddled in fetal position on many a kitchen floor: “I don’t get it! What am I doing wrong? Where’s MY Grammy?” Lol. A few things have shifted with time: - As the bloated corpse of capitalism continues to fester and sink into the steadily rising sea, I have become more profoundly comfortable with the knowledge that my vision of “success” does not align with that of patriarchal white supremacist corporatocracy, and is in fact directly at odds with it. - With the help of various therapists over the years, I’ve been slowly unbraiding the tangled rope of my desire: separating the calling to make art and share it with the world from the desperate ambition that originates in deep insecurity and not feeling inherently worthy of love. - The more time I’ve spent in and around the entertainment industry, the more I’ve come to understand that, particularly at this point in history, it’s a rich kid’s game run on nepotism and pre-existing wealth. It’s a rigged game, y’all, and I say this not to complain, but rather to hopefully alleviate the suffering of any fellow working class kids out there comparing their “accomplishments” to those of their trust-fund-wielding peers. Making records is expensive. Promoting records is expensive. Touring is expensive. One time I asked my friend Greg, “How do you get on Sirius XM radio?” He said, “You hire a radio plugger for $10k/month, and hope for the best.” A famous actor friend once literally told me I couldn’t do what I want to do in Hollywood because I “don’t have a pedigree.” 🤯 I used to suffer so much naively thinking that this is a meritocracy and I wasn’t good enough. If you find yourself suffering in similar ways, this is a cordial invitation to set yourself free. 👁️ @decarbonazul