I know I’ve been gone for a while, but I had to take time to heal and get to a healthy mental state. A few months ago I lost my best friend, my confidant, my love... my heart, and it almost killed me. It left me in a VERY dark place, so I had to get help. Johnny (JohnnyUtahx) was my everything!! After over 20 years of friendship that blossomed into LOVE, we finally got it right and started planning our lives together. Then, a few months later, my heart shattered into a million pieces when he left. Now I’m trying to figure out how to live with a broken heart, without my heart... him. As impossible as my tattered heart tells me this is, I pray to God daily for strength, and thank my family and friends for the constant support. I’m usually a very private person and almost never vulnerable, especially publicly. But, I wanted my first post back (today especially, which would have been our anniversary) to be a tribute to him, or it just would not feel right. He’s the reason I even picked up a camera. I honestly wondered if I should even continue in photography, but I know he would want me to. And even though I still carry this immense pain, and feel completely lost without him, I will continue on this journey as a way of staying connected to him and our passion to create. I know God is always good, so I will trust in him and his plan! Love you forever... My JMc ♥️♥️🙏🏾🙏🏾