right now i feel really lost, consistently confused and in a right state of stasis. the last time i felt this way for an extended period of time was summer of 2020 so i sent my messy, angry and garbled feelings to the folks over at @howlround and they PUBLISHED it. and now in my time of need for inspiration and guidance they tell me that MY ESSAY will be included in their FIRST EVER published anthology in celebration of their 10th birthday! LOOK AT THESE NAMES i am humbled to be in the midst of. and there’s one photo of me here where i thought “fine sure yes maybe perhaps everything will be okay” aka i’m “smiling” and another photo where i feel hopeless, pathetic and agnostic about everything and everyone aka “masked on a train” i am so honored to be part of this anthology and displayed such a clear sense of mind and next steps in my essay. but real talk right now i’m actually a mess and need these essays “now more than ever”. and maybe you do, too. either today or tomorrow or a time undisclosed because what does ProcessTM️ tell us? all in due time, baby. if you like me cannot wait to get your hands on this, use the code ANTHOLOGY10 to get 10% off during pre-orders! now until june 21! thank you for reading my word vomit, thank you howlround for helping me turn my word vomit into an essay i am very proud of and thank you friends and family who have uplifted me ✨