I don’t know why I thought I wouldn’t sob my eyes out watching @msmarvelofficial last night. I mean, I’ve cried watching every episode because of how much I miss you, what this year has meant in our family, and how beautifully and perfectly a Pakistani family has been portrayed on the show. Every time I watch it, I feel like I’m somehow with you again. And in last night’s episode Kamala went with her mother to Pakistan for the first time. And I just started sobbing thinking about how we had always planned to go together. All the family I would meet, the places we would see, ALLLLLL the shopping we would do. . In the last 8 years since you’ve been gone I’ve missed you every single day, but it’s just hit me so much harder this year. . There are days where I feel bitter, that you were literally stolen away from us. And then there are days where I’m thankful in the wonder of how we came to find each other, that different kinds of soulmates exist- and that even though I already had very loving parents and family, you were also the mother I was also always meant to have in my life. . I certainly wasn’t looking or expecting to be adopted into a family in my early twenties, but the moment we met it was like everything just clicked into place, like we’d been family for eternity, but only just met. . On my toughest days I can still feel your hand clasping mine, your mischievous laughter filling the room, and your twinkling eyes reassuring me.