‘be afraid and do it anyway’ The last time I went into treatment for anorexia I was there for 14 weeks and I promised myself: never again. But unfortunately, as I keep learning, it doesn’t work that way. Between a worldwide pandemic, an injury and various other personal things, that was it. Decline in physical and mental health, despite my best efforts to manage it, and then, the straw that broke the camels back came along just under 4 weeks ago, and everything just nose dived physically. Now I wait for a bed so I can be admitted to hospital and undertake the same program I did in 2019. HSE funding secured immediately this time. Everything lined up. 100% do not want to do it, but it is what it is. I’ll spend my 30th birthday and possibly Christmas in hospital. As Brooke Davis once said ‘I feel a little...a little bit like I failed. You know? I am watching all my friends move on with their lives.. and I’m stuck here’. Anorexia, the gift that keeps on giving. Wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. Someday, I will wake up, and it won’t be something I think about 🙏🏻 #irishblogger #irishbbloggers #mhblogger #edrecovery