hi... so, I’m autistic. I wanted to share this because it’s terrifying and usually when something sits in this particular fear feeling, it’s something worth saying out loud. I’ve known for about a year now and it’s been a life changing journey. learning about asd has shed light on so much darkness in my life. I have lived my life feeling deeply misunderstood. as a child I had difficulty making friends, never understanding what I was doing wrong, and ultimately landed on the conclusion that something must be wrong with me. so I delved deep into my fantasy world, into books, special interests, creative projects all which fed my soul but didn’t change the deep seated feelings of lonliness and isolation. as a teenager I tried my hardest to change myself into someone people could like. masking and mimicking/mirroring behavior, humor, mannerisms, attempting to craft a new identity. that didn’t seem to work either, as I continued to be the odd one out, ostracized, judged, bullied, and so it seemed, hated. from isolated child to suicidal teenager I somehow made it into adulthood. slowly started to discover who I really am and show parts of myself I’d hidden. I made friends, I deepened friendships I’d made along the way. and now, as a woman in my twenties, I finally have a diagnosis that explains so much of my pain and suffering. being neurodivergent makes me who I am. someone who I can finally, honestly say, I am head over heels in love with. I am posting this as a seed that I will continue to water as I grow and learn, throughout my life, throughout my career. a career which I am only interested in having if I am able to use my platform, voice, art to create and expand safe space for people to be themselves. to feel seen, heard, empowered, uplifted, held. I am here to share my experiences, my learnings and knowings and musings in hopes that perhaps you might resonate and feel less alone. I am here to let you know that you you are enough, you are worthy, you are loved. if no one has told you lately (or even if they have) I LOVE YOU, exactly as you are. now here are some memes lol love, your favorite neurodivergent pop star faerie 🧚🏼💕🧜🏼‍♀️💜💘