I’ve been struggling to find the words, the emotions I’ve been feeling. What I can say is that, Sydney, my other half, my soul sister, my rock, I’ve lost a huge part of myself. There will never be the right words to explain how much I love you. Our bond was unlike any other. We were family. We ARE family. I know you will be with me today, tomorrow, and for years to come to allow me to carry on with a shattered heart as I push through milestones we‘re supposed to experience together. I don’t know how to live in a world without you in it. There was no me without you. You were everything to me. I will try to live my life to the fullest for us one day at a time and continue to carry on your voice until I take my last breath. Until we meet again, my sweet Sydney you will always have my heart. I will carry you with me, I will miss you every second of every day. I will continue to turn to you for strength and guidance just the way it always has been. I love you til my lungs give out syd. This can’t do our relationship justice because we were everything and MORE. You know that. I know that. So that’s all that matters. No one will ever understand. In the end it was us. ONLY us. My family. My blood. We were placed in each other’s lives for a reason. For you to save me and for me to save you. And I wish I could’ve. But I never gave up because I know you would’ve never given up on me. And I know in my heart there was a reason I was there to say goodbye to you. My life will never be the same without you. I want to know you have found peace, I want to know you aren’t suffering anymore. I hope the overwhelming amount of love we have for each other is enough to keep my head above water. It feels like when you left you took my heart with you. But heaven couldn’t wait for my beautiful Sydney. I know meadow will take care of you for me. I’ll love you everyday with everything I have until I see you again. Everything I ever do will be for you mama. I’ll take care of our families. I’ll never let ANYONE remember you for any other reason other than the fact that you are a fucking LEGEND! I’m holding your hand now & forever baby girl, you’re gonna live forever in me