Dr. Moses Fola Adewole A great man. A King. 🤴🏿 My dad passed away tonight... & my mother has lost the only man she has ever loved. I went my entire life knowing I wasn't loved by him. Feeling like a disappointment to him. A cloud of shame. Through therapy, years ago, I realized he was doing the best he could, with the tools he had. Education was his savior, his way out. It wasn't mine. I was gifted. With magical hands and an imagination like Picasso. The living Black Renaissance. He couldn't understand my world. I couldn't comprehend his. I was the black sheep. Disowned and cast aside. My brother and sisters endured & excelled under his tutelage. Yale, Pitt, UCLA. A Tribe of geniuses, all from his blood line. A accomplished lineage. Me, I just kept drawing and creating in the shadows, minimizing myself to remain invisible. Tonight, I carried his lifeless body to the gurney once the paramedics arrived. Moments later, I lifted my beautiful mother from weeping on the ground, carrying her to the sofa to rest. I grew some comfort from hearing he apologized to her days before he passed. I had never heard that man apologize. Ever. I was surprised, shocked even. The hell he put her through. Physical, mental, verbal. It was unbearable at times. My mom, years later, feeding him, grooming him, by his bedside as dementia ravaged his mind and body, still loving him.... I would observe, silently, from a distance. My brother and sister loving him, serving him, feeding him. It was humbling to watch. When I carried his body tonight, it was the 1st time I embraced + hugged him in over 20+ years. I never actually heard him say he loved me. Not once. The pain changed me... Everyone I know feels my love. Deeply. I know where it comes from. A void.. pray for my dear mother. The most faithful woman I know. Literally the only reason I am still alive. Lord knows I would've given up years ago if it wasn't for her. She always supplied what I needed. Always. She taught me how to love people. I forgive you dad. goodbye Dr. Adewole. I never made you proud, but I found myself in the process. Rest well King. all i want to become is a good dad 💔