[refill] . . In all honesty I really have not been feeling like creating, and I have a terrible habit of making myself feel guilty for it. I’ve started to understand after about 6 years of consistent creation, that I’ve never really given myself time to understand “Josh.” I don’t know much about him or what he likes to do. Moving across the country by myself is revealing all these thoughts, and right now I’m just kinda irritated, and clueless about myself. I put so much focus into achievements/work to the point where idk exactly what I want anymore. I go back all the time and look at when I first started creating, and how much fun I was having, and it makes me so sad. I miss the times when I wasn’t worried about money, or a career, and it felt more pure than this. That’s definitely my fault though, I’ll find it again.