VIR(GOAT) SZN was filled with a lot of self talk. I was in a small accident (I’m okay). I was getting fucked over by people I worked with and so forth. I was being TESTED to see how I would show up for myself and others amidst chaos. The most consistent thing I could ever do was breathe, pray, and keep working on myself. Because life isn’t linear and the journey can be real sticky, real messy. I was exhausted. I was tired. I wanted to give up on a LOT and there were many things left unsaid. But I still showed up. I still got glamorous and celebrated my loved ones when the opportunity presented itself. I isolated myself too, because my MO is to go silent when I need to figure out how to stabilize and make sure my energy is good before making others collateral damage. And in some ways I feel like I’m being punished for taking time to myself when I needed to. But in others, I feel thankful to even have the mindset to reflect, to pause, and to ask God why all of this was happening in my life. My perspective kept coming back to, everything in life has its caveat, and I wasn’t going to obsess over anything I couldn’t control. Letting go of old ways, and trusting God to handle things can be really rough and frustrating when you know deep down inside you’re a solid fucking human being. I do my best to lead with integrity, to consider others before myself, and often am met with people who try to take advantage of my kindness and expertise in most areas. Standing 10 toes down on my boundaries and respect is something I’m very proud of. I’m also very thankful for my support system because I have broken down in ways social media will never see, because this platform (though it was meant to connect others) doesn’t truly provide a space without judgement. Anyway, I feel like I’m rambling but as I attempt to be consistent on this posting thing, feel free to follow my journey on threads where I tend to be more active and if any of this jumbled mess has resonated with you, please let me know. Cheers to finding yourself all over again. 🤲🏽♥️ Sending love from across the screen. Xo, A. 💋 #isthisthingon #virgoszn #virgo #recap #selflove #trustgodbro #onedayatime