A month ago I couldn’t even get out of bed. I was struggling with a bout of anxiety and depression and felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. It was then I was invited to a event in Byron and with the push of my partner I decided to go. This was huge for me I haven’t left my comfort zone in years or been on a holiday for longer. What I thought/ hoped would be a relaxing, adventurous holiday where I could escape my worries turned into something completely different. I attended a business event, culture camp, bumped into insta friends and lastly decided to hire a van and go where the wind took me. It all sounds very romantic but I realised that it really didn’t matter where I was I was always going to take my brain with me. The one that constantly worries and really runs the show. The last week I would wake up with anxiety so bad I would feel it in my chest situations kept occurring that made me cry like a kid uncontrollably. I would be witnessing myself completely overreacting in tears to a situation but knew it occurred so that I could cry. I had so much I needed to release and they all acted as catalyst for it. It took me a bit of time to realise that this “holiday” i thought I was on was actually not holiday. Spirit had taken me on a quest of healing and self discovery. The plans I had didn’t work out and I ended up in randomly in places that I’d been before my many years ago wondering why. I was on a journey reclaiming parts of myself I had left behind. I was meeting people and having conversations that I needed to hear. Confirmations of what I knew about who I am, who I’m meant to be and what I know that no one has taught be but spirit and country. While this time away was not what I had envisioned or wanted it was exactly what I needed. I’ve remembered who I am and what is most important to me in life, who I want to be and what I need/ want to let go of. I realised that connecting with people is just as important as connecting with country. I’ve learnt what I prefer what makes me feel most connected and what doesn’t. I’ve seen that the grass is not greener on the other side and that the picture perfect perception of cont in comments.