The sound track to the first 24 years of my life I used to think I wasn’t supposed to feel. Having emotions outside of mild content wasn’t proper, it was embarrassing to feel. Staying numb and stuffing down my emotions led to my ED, depression, anxiety. It led me staying in unhealthy relationships and only pursuing partners that would reaffirm what my inner critic told me. That I was the problem. That everyone else was okay and I was asking for too much. That I had unrealistic expectations of what I deserve. I was stuck growing sideways for so long and the past year of feeling it all was the most painful of my life. It was overwhelming and at points unbearable but for the first time, I think I can say I’ve met me. #noahkahan #stickseason #selfgrowth #growingsideways #mentalhealth #feelingsarevalid #granola #granolamusic #granolagirl