July almost felt normal... Looking back, I experienced very high highs and very low lows this last month navigating through the craziness of the world today. Hopping back and forth between Florida home and Nashville home, attempting to become re-established in my “new” city. I felt like I was just starting right back at square one just like in January, except there’s ten times the amount of resistance. Being in a very relationship oriented business and town, it’s difficult to build that ship when the whole world is centered on distancing from one another. Weeks without work and too much time on my hands has caused me to rethink many decisions, questioning whether I’m in the right place doing the right work, or if I should just give up the dream and go get a safe and secure job. Although, job security has proven to be not much of a thing with corporate life either. The desire for instant gratification is all too real and just as toxic. I’m expecting to pass with flying colors within 10 months in a 10 year town. I was able pick up a few more gigs through the people that believed in me which reminded me how stoked I am to be doing what I’m doing, giving me one more little push and motivation that I was struggling to achieve. I had to remind myself how lucky I was that I’m getting paid to do these jobs that most people would be thrilled to do for fun. The realization that I am all too dependent on others approval for my happiness hit hard, and the constant comparison of myself to others work was a heavy weight on my shoulders. This is something I continue to struggle with greatly. Anyone have any tips n tricks, do tell. Then I start to reconnect with old friends and make new friends, friends that support my weird endeavors, relate to my experiences, and push me to keep going. As much of a planner that I am, I came to realize amidst this pandemic that sometimes going with the flow is all you can do, and it’s not always a terrible thing. Take advantage of the situation, clock out and enjoy life. Find the bright side and hang out there for a bit. I’m a little timid to say I can’t wait for the next chapter in 2020... But here we go 🤠