Learning how to deal, how to react, and how to exist. I have in 4 years booked over 50 campaigns, I’ve grown 69 thousand followers in 2 years, I’ve had people tell me I’ve changed their lives every week for the last 7 years... And yet I find myself being “strong” in a moment where someone jumps at the sight of shaking my hand.. I find myself wishing I used the other hand.. then I find myself saying nothing so that I don’t seem like I’m bothered.. however after that fight or flight adrenaline is over , I find myself thinking I’m ok until I repeat the story... then I cry... then I’m back in middle school picking up someone’s pencil just for them to run an sanitize it while screaming so the whole class can join them in a laugh... not a single thought of my success shows up, not even for a moment.. I just feel naked, and I feel embarrassed. But after the tears, and the haunting memories go away, I find myself. I have the tough talk with myself. And I say, well... little hand only for hand shakes :) People will without warning make you feel small, like you could be squashed by a pinky toe... so you have to be real within.. and get big. Love you.