The night before we moved, Ava threw up in our bed so I spent the morning doing loads of laundry while movers wrapped furniture around her while she whimpered on our dog bed even though we don't have a dog. 35% of our stuff went on a Brooklyn stoop and was gone in an hour. I decided to never buy my children a toy again. One of our movers left with a $450 plate we got for our wedding thinking it was in the giveaway pile and I harnessed non-detachment and said "enjoy." Neil stopped by and told me his whole life story but once he got to his high school reunion I told him I needed to go back to packing. I asked Riggs how he was feeling and he said "do you know humans come from monkeys?" Ava saw me crying and said, "mom, don't forget it's almost time for your period which is why you feel emotional ." I sobbed saying goodbye to Pam, cried half the drive to shore, then pulled in our driveway, walked to the beach, sat in the sand at dusk, and quietly whispered on repeat, "what washes ashore, washes away." . Brooklyn, thank you; we became a family in you. Garden State, let's finally start a garden.