Happy #worldmentalhealthday 🌱 A day to break down stigmas & discuss how our #MentalHealth is just as important as our physical health. A day that needs to happen EVERY DAY. I wanted to share some things I've been dealing with lately. This year I've often taken on so much of others. I've forgetten there's me too. So I've had to change my narrative & put me first. Nurturing my body as it recovered from kidney failure & major dental surgery & equally nurturing my mind. Hence I've gained weight recently, & I know I needed to as trauma took its toll on my body. However, I'm not going to lie, the doubts creep in & you become petrified as your past so called "friend" #eatingdisorder goes "Hey girl! I'm part of you, let me back in!" I'm so proud that I've gone "Hey arse hole! You have taken enough off me, you get no more! Piss off!" I literally have that conversation. ED is in my back pocket & when it attempts to get back in I say these words, reach in the back pocket, acknowledge it's presence, then smack it right back down! Confidence, it's a funny thing. I go onstage every night, living it large as my character Shelley would do @hulltruck Yet conversations I have in the dressing room can be such a world apart from that & that's OK, because I'm TALKING. I rationalise it by looking back at the dirt & I decide to keep growing flowers. I choose LIFE. I choose ME. Recovery is possible, life can be about THRIVING, not just surviving, but we can only do this if we KEEP TALKING ABOUT HOW WE FEEL WITH NO SHAME. My parents saved my life by setting up @SeedSupportUK 22yrs ago. A charity saved me over any psychiatric unit, ED unit or hospital. That's why today I want to shout about how the government must do better in supporting smaller charities like us. We are a lifeline. We need more help to ensure we can keep helping others 🙏 Early intervention is key. Please speak out & seek support if you are struggling. You matter. To conclude, the above images - Picture 1 shows me turning 18, yet again battling the eating disorder V me this week 20yrs later, recovered, living my dreams on stage and running SEED. Recovery is possible. Trust me ❤️we've got this 🌱