Honestly, I don’t like to be in the spotlight or bringing attention to things especially when it comes to what’s going on in my life behind the scenes, but I do want people to see Jesus when they see me. So if the Lord is using me as a vessel, here it goes. Life is incredibly heavy right now. I haven’t wanted to open my Bible in over 2 months. I know it’s the answer to all my sadness, but just haven’t been able to bring myself to it These last two weeks I knew I needed to quiet the noise. Being on social media can be a huge weight when you’re not mentally healthy. So I decided despite the momentum I had going that for my sanity I needed to silence it all after I recently tested moderately high for depression and anxiety. I’ve always struggled with anxiety but I wasn’t expecting the depression. Many things can trigger it, and I’m putting together the pieces of the circumstances that have trailed me to this point. I’m learning that depression and anxiety can come in all sorts of forms. I’m also figuring out slowly how to dig myself out of it. I’ve been often wondering if there’s any purpose to what Ive been going through lately, been questioning if my faithfulness is actually pointless. But here’s what I’m trying to hold true to- I know that we can still glorify God when we are amidst deep emotional pain, still choosing to praise Him through our tears, because we don’t suffer for nothing and we don’t suffer alone. If you’re going through something hard, don’t believe the lie that your suffering doesn’t matter, that no one sees, and that there’s no point to holding steadfast to your faith. Press on, fight with joy, and remain faithful friend. God tells us in Psalm 27 to “Wait for the Lord, be strong and let your heart take courage, wait for the Lord.” Gods timing is not our own, so let’s be a vessel for Him and continue to praise Him in our storms.