Hellooo Insta fam! I know I’ve been extremely MIA from socials lately - so here’s a candid pic from my afternoon walk today and a selection of other random pics of life lately 🤷🏼‍♀️😂 If I’m being honest I’ve been finding it really difficult, overwhelming and triggering to try & keep active & show up on socials lately. The last few months have involved a lot of significant changes & ‘shifts’ in my life, & a lot of the external ‘markers’, that I previously thought defined who I am, have been being stripped away. Leaving me feeling a little lost, uncertain, overwhelmed & adrift. You see I think as humans, we often have a tendency to define ourselves by things OUTSIDE ourselves - titles, achievements, material possessions, our partners, our jobs & qualifications, likes on social media, etc etc & we tie our sense of identity & worth very tightly to those things. We make the mistake of defining ourselves as WHAT we are, rather than figuring out WHO we are - the things on the inside, at our essence, our values, morals, ethics, talents, passions, beliefs, strengths & weaknesses & so on, the things that make us uniquely US. The unfortunate thing about this is that at any moment, those WHATS can be taken away, or change or evolve, & If we haven’t forged a strong sense of WHO we are, when those things don’t exist, it can leave us feeling a little uncertain & unworthy. So much has been happening in my life in the last few months, & years, & so many things that I thought defined me, are not present in my life anymore - I am no longer an active member of the pageant community - something that was the main focus of my life for 10-15 years, for the time being I’ve stopped actively pursuing ‘influencing’, acting or presenting gigs, I also recently parted ways with my modelling agency after having been agency represented for 10ish years, I’ve changed hair colour a few times (traumatic 😂), I left a long term relationship & moved back in with my parents, have recently started moving from being a face to face PT on the gym floor, to a role in head office at a desk & way WAY more that I don’t have nearly enough characters to go into. Continued in comments ⬇️⬇️