Note to self... You can not feel “good” everyday. Yesterday I had what I call a sad girl day. I slept a lot. I bailed on obligations which I then felt guilty about. I failed on projects I was hoping to succeed at in order to restore my self confidence. Basically yesterday felt like a bust. So it was a bit serendipitous when I realized it has been so long since I last picked up the book I’m reading, that I had to reread the last few chapters. Beautifully constructed sentences like “Being fully human is not about feeling happy, it’s about feeling everything.”, and “I can feel everything and survive.” They really hit me. Now that last one feels a bit dramatic to compare myself and whatever I was feeling yesterday to, but I’ve def seen and been through a lot in my 40 plus years on this 🌏. Grief, depression, anxiety, unemployment, debt, low self esteem. It’s taken years of hard work and self reflection, but I’ve built up my trust muscle, and I know that tomorrow is always a new day. I try to remind myself to feel grateful for the days that I feel sad, agitated, overwhelmed, or just f*#ing meh. Those days are a part of the story also, and they help us appreciate and obsess over those REALLY REALLY good feeling days. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t craving one of those days right now. A day spent laying next to a crystal clear warm ocean with just the sound of the waves, and a gentle warm wind 🤤Gahhhh heaven. But I’m here, I’m in the city. I’m at home, doing the work, feeling the feelings, and for today that is prob exactly where I need to be. But you know what else? I do feel better today. Ok I’m done rambling I promise. I hope you’re exactly where you need to be too, but don’t forget tomorrow is a always a new day💋 ❤️