// tower moment 🤍 ((psa: i am just sharing my raw thoughts, not looking for pity)) yesterday while walking this sweet angel, my friend stopped and took a photo of us. when i was sent the photos, the first thing i said was "i can't stand how i look in my growing season. i look like a buffalo". the past two months have been the most challenging for me since i started my coaching + bodybuilding journey. the past two weeks in particular have been the most challenging, and i've stepped away from social media honestly not just because i have too much going on work + study wise, but because i was so embarrassed of myself and how i physically looked. i have struggled with bingeing in the form of stress/emotional eating, every couple of weeks it would seem like i was getting better, then stress of life would hit and i'd fall back down again. yesterday i had a moment of clarity, and i realised two things: 1. i was comparing the past 2 months of myself, to the version of me that wasn't studying a full time load and juggling 2 jobs. of course any reasonable person who would have been in my position would have found trying to be "strict" on plan to be difficult. the fact that i was training 5 days a week on top of everything else i was doing was a win in itself. 2. the challenges that i'm facing are a means of making me even more resilient; physically, mentally & spiritually. there is no pain without purpose, and every lower low is to reach an even higher high. so here's to: - posting photos of me in my growing season that i didn't take myself where i can angle myself to look "more flattering" - giving yourself grace in the most challenging times - loving your body at every stage #selflove #fitnessjourney #111 #333 #towermoment #reflections #thoughts #dogs