This isn’t how you imagined you would enter motherhood Watching others take their baby home right before your eyes Not knowing if yours is alive. Having to get permission from a stranger to hold your newborn baby Listening to beeps and monitors alarming you their heartbeat is dropping. Placing your hands through the tiny doors of a plastic box just to touch them Questioning why you couldn’t keep them safe a little longer. Heading into hospital and walking pass those leaving with their baby so perfectly in a car seat Knowing they are taking their baby home today and you haven’t even held yours yet. Your heart broke into a million pieces the first time you laid eyes on your baby So small and fragile. You look around at the other mothers standing close by Oozing with postnatal depression, fear and trauma But standing strong in the eyes of medical teams. They couldn’t see how broken you were behind the armour But I could. I saw you smile But I knew the mental battle you were fighting. This isn’t how you imagined you would enter motherhood Lift your head up mama before you miss the miracle happening right in-front of you 💜 #nicu #nicunurse #nicumom #nicubaby #nicumum #prematurebaby #preemie #preemiestrong #preemiestrong #preemiebaby #pregnancy #newmum #newmom