What’s an actors worst nightmare? Just about this. What we do is... wild. Especially when we get up and play ourselves. This was my first time singing since being back from Mean Girls. I was so nervous and I worked on the lyrics every day for 3 entire weeks. I wanted to feel so solid, so strong being back in the city and singing with Broadway Sings. It just didn’t go that way. After the bridge I completely forgot what happened next in the lyrics. I tried to find the words in the sea of words generously being screamed to me but I just could not find my way back. You can see it in the video. I’m so frustrated with the public failure. I’m bummed. I’m mortified. And then Joshua says “We should take that back, right?” And the crowd went wild. And I rode that wave of electricity generated by the audience and the other actors cheering me on. The chance to get to do it again. Corey saying “I wouldn’t have wanted it to go any other way- that was such a moment.” Instead of firing me from all future concerts. The process is so real and social media is just not. It would be *so* easy for me to just share the end of this video. The capture of triumph, the crowd behind me, the energy and the landing but that wouldn’t be the whole truth. The truth is: It feels hard to be an actor right now. And this night was hard. But I think I needed to fail forward. To remember what’s so special about Broadway is the community. To be so concretely encouraged to take up space there. I guess all this overshare to say, if this is what failure looks like... imma keep dreaming in spite of the nightmares.