idk why I’m posting this and ill probably regret it and delete it tomorrow but here we are. As far back as I can remember ive been writing. Scripts, poems, lyrics, books you name it. Flash forward to putting out my debut album at the beginning of a pandemic and I had never felt so lost and distant from writing. (Not just because of Covid) I think all the time standing still for once made me really look at my life and I felt like I had somewhere along the way completely fallen out of love with music. I decided I wasn’t going to be an artist anymore. I wasn’t going to put out any more music. I couldn’t even bring myself to write ANYTHING. Not even for someone else. One day (one very very emotional detached day) I had therapy. Then I sat on my bed and stared at nothing for five hours. Then I talked to my grandpa on the phone for 45 minutes. Then I cried and felt sorry for myself. Then I picked up my guitar that I hadn’t touched in months and months and I sat in my bathtub fully clothed like I used to when I was a little girl and sang out (in so many words) this song. It’s not a pop song. in fact its basically just 15 verses. I don’t even know what it is but I cried after and felt so alive and free and in a way felt like I had been waiting my whole life to write/ sing these words. It might sound dramatic and you may be rolling your eyes but I have been through a lot in my life and have been too scared to really face myself and some things that have happened to me when i was too young. This song felt like it healed me in a very surreal way. I recorded it under a blanket in my house with the very first guitar I ever owned and a glass of whiskey. I know I’m not singing beautifully or playing perfect but I was emotional and also a little drunk and did it for myself not for anyone else. This song inspired me to write again and I can’t wait to share my second album with my beautiful fans who stuck with me. If anybody wants to read the lyrics message me I’ll send them. Okay love you. Thanks for reading this if you did.