OVERWHELMING TIME Recently I feel I have been a bit quiet on here compared to my normal activity, and to be honest I am feeling a bit lost in life. Things are really busy which is lovely, but I feel I have lost my sense of purpose and things are quite overwhelming at times. October is around the corner (a big one in the breast cancer community), many amazing campaigns I have been part of will come out and lots of posts and information to share, but October is also my cancerversary for my secondaries which hits hard each year. In a funny way I also never planned on still being here. I am coming up to 6 years post secondary diagnosis, and have sadly seen many people join the club and leave this world behind in front of my eyes, so I am exceptionally grateful to still be here, but being alive, in a future you thought you would never have brings its own challenges. I feel constantly like I am living on borrowed time and it can feel scary. I don't want to let my guard down in case things go tits up but it is hard to constantly live life with the worry hanging over you. I also know I am one of the lucky ones and that in itself can be tough. It's not easy seeing others face the same fate you will one day face My body also doesn't do as I want it to and recently I have been in more pain and more achy than I have ever felt which I am struggling to accept. I think everyone assumes the longer down the line in treatment you get, the better you feel, when in fact it is the complete opposite. Some days I find physically and mentally challenging and get frustrated with myself and I often feel deflated. It's okay to feel like this. It's normal and all part of the process of living with cancer. I'm sure after some well deserved R&R and sunshine I will be bouncing back ready for a busy October, but I definitely need a breather. #LifeWithCancer #Overwhelmed #BusyLife #BCAM #TimeToRelax #SelfCareTime Top - @secondary.sisters x @neonmarl collab Leggings - previous pr gift @sweatybetty