What is the vision worth to you? Is it actually the vision you’re after or something underlying? Sitting in my local coffee shop I ran through my head thinking about the amount of camera gear I’m about to sell and it made me start to ponder some concept of why I have to unload gear, why I have enough to get rid of a lot. Doing the math in my head, I realized I’ve spent just a hair under $100K on camera gear in my career. This sounds absolutely astronomical to many on first glance but hear me out as to why I believe it’s actually quite reasonable, and finance isn’t even a thought for the reason. Throughout my life, I’ve always had a different way of living. My mind operated on a very different plane, the way I saw the world for what it could be, more so than what it actually was, and my refusal to do anything anyone else’s way. Within all of that though has always lived this large, existential, hole in the center of my soul. I’ve felt empty in a way that crippled me for as long as I have memory. It’s led me on many ventures, positive and negative, along with many different life paths With photography, I found something that didn’t necessarily fill that gap in my soul, but was very obviously the avenue through which I would be able to eventually become “complete” In my entire life, my career, and my journey, I’ve intentionally set up insurmountable standards for myself as it is how my father raised me. There was always a level I could elevate to, so no matter what, it was never good enough. Many people in this era view that negatively, but on my journey to being an adult, it is what made me love the way my father raised me. His standards instilled greatness in me. So what does all this rambling bullshit mean? I’ve spent $100,000 trying to find “that perfect shot”. That one photo that finally lives up to my standard. That one photo that makes me feel complete That one photo that shows the beautiful disaster-piece that my mind is. Here’s to knowing that shot doesn’t exist, and that it’s the journey that will complete me. Here’s to never being good enough.... AND THAT BEING A GOOD THING ❤️