I really miss my mom today. Today would have been her 69th birthday. Life never stops throwing challenges at you and it’s moments like these that I really wish I could pick up the phone and call her. I hate the term “time heals all wounds” because great losses never fully heal, you just get better at covering it up. I’ve thought about my mom every day for the last 18 years. Every single day. I’ve thought about her more and more as I’ve become a mother and ask myself how the hell did she do it all? She was truly something special. And I hope that someday my children think I’m even just half the mom she was. I went in for my 4th beta test today to see if this pregnancy is continuing to progress - I get the results in a few hours. I know my mom is watching over us, I just wish it was earth side today. I love you, Judy Rose.