I’ve far surpassed any original goals I started off with in 2013 for @wespeakmodels and am realizing I need to update my life, outlook, and formulate new, concrete goals for the company. I’ve also been working on personal life stuff, including my stress and anxiety, which has been getting much worse lately. To be honest, I’m having a really rough time finding direction, clarity, and balance in my life. It’s difficult getting past the roadblocks my mind constantly puts up. I make a good show on the outside and still find huge successes to celebrate, but on the inside, there are mountains of thoughts, racing heartbeats, cold sweats, second-guessing.... And I’ve been on this sort of “autopilot” during most of these past few years. Reactively addressing whatever needed my attention most and just waiting for the next small break which only barely allowed my head above water each time. Now that I’m reconfiguring to be more intentional and proactive, I know things will look up. Keep growing. It’s f*cking hard and nothing ever feels settled but maybe that’s how it’s supposed to be? These photos got me thinking because this was the day the photographer and I really got some of these strong emotions captured. I was thinking about all this during the shoot. Channeling all of it. So much to dig up I actually began to tear up in some shots. 📸 @analogfps