I learned a Hebrew saying this week that really resonated: “From here I can see things I couldn’t see from over there.” It succinctly puts my experiences the last few months into one simple sentence. As I am stepping into one of the most pivotal times of my life and bringing full awareness to myself and my inner shadows, stories and limiting beliefs, I am starting to really understand the depth and complexity of how our pasts create grooves that our futures inevitably will fall into unless you make a full and genuine effort to be aware of them, process them and then decide to rebuild in a more conscious and aware way. I just went through a week long ISTA training in Portugal and it was one of the most powerful experiences of my entire life. It provided a perfect mirror for me to see and break down everything that had created my emotional landscape and made space for me to create a new and healthier one. It almost required a slow death of the old id and ego, which fights tooth and nail to stay alive. After all without my old stories and ego, the space left while I form a new way is scary and can feel ungrounded but also in this space I am so much more free to follow intuition and listen to what my soul is asking of me. A death and rebirth of all previous identities as a photographer, partner, a man scared of emotion and skeptical of spirituality. Everything is being deconstructed. The work now will be integrating everything that went on this week but I will highly recommend this to anyone who is really ready to wake up and to tackle their inner shadows. Fair warning, it is not easy. I describe it as an emotional marathon but you are sprinting the whole time. I cried and yelled and grieved and broke down more times than I can count in 7 days. Continued in comments ➣