Your intuition/heart knows what you really want. You either ignore it, or you listen. Listening means change. Change is your first vacation in your whole 37 years on Earth. Change is "putting yourself first", which means (I'm learning...) saying, Yes heart I'm listening and I'll follow you to the depths of my own Self, and there I'll find water lapping at a beach with a big, sturdy rock reaching down and up forever. And you can always go there, because it's actually inside you. Travelling without moving, as Jamiroquai said. Or, also, you could actually travel. Either way listen to your heart, it's calling you.