If all it took was drinking cucumber juice and going for a walk I would have been better a long time ago. But I’m not, I’m still sick. It’s incredibly invalidating and demoralising for those around you to claim that it’s “not good for you to be lying around in bed all the time”. I wouldn’t ever choose to not get better. I want more than anything to have my old life back. I haven’t been able to work properly for 3 years, my health continues to decline to the point I can’t do my photography currently. I struggle to stay in touch with friends. I want to go out and make memories but I can’t. It’s incredibly lonely and isolating spending 90% of my life in my bed. I feel like I have the flu after every single time I leave the house. It’s a repercussion of having to leave my bed. The fatigue, joint pain, dizziness, blackouts, brain fog, allergy attacks, palpitations and more I can’t bear. It’s horrible having those around you think you’re lazy and you’re choosing this. I’ve already spent a lot of money to try and help my health out this year, so it hurts more when others can’t recognise the effort I am putting in to help myself. Stop thinking disabled people don’t want to get better. I can assure you a lot of us would choose to have a better quality of life in an instant if it was possible. #disabilityawareness #disabledlife #disabilityadvocate #mecfs #eds #chronicillnesses #chronicfatigue #chronicfatigueawareness #disabledandcute #disabilityblogger