Time for a TB & long story? 😂 I never expected a burn to ever to happen to me, before I was completely oblivious to this very common, yet extremely debilitating and excruciating injury.I recall the morning where I told my nurses and surgeons during my hospitalization that I wanted to die. I didn’t want to go for the surgery. I was thinking of all the ways I could disappear, and about how I could force open the hospital ward windows to jump off. Before I was the proud owner of these scars, I had already been through quite a bit in my life, and developed many trauma response mechanisms like anxiety, confusion, withdrawing and codependency/abandonment issues. Growing up, I never felt like I fit in anywhere. I was on antidepressants for a good 5 years before I finally said no more and started to treat the root of my problems. The burn felt like the end of my life. People call me a freak, Frankenstein, tabloids called me a monster because I was “dumped” by my ex-boyfriend when I was at my most fragile states. But through my journal, I’ll tell you what my burn really did for me. I had another spiritual awakening – this time I was serious about bringing the darkness, the unconscious parts of me that I had been burying DEEP within me, into light. Did you know us humans live our lives through like, 90% of the subconscious? Tied to the hospital bed with no one but four walls around me and an IV drip, that bloody forces you to face your demons. I started to observe. I stopped identifying as much with my thoughts because if I did, tbh I think I would have gone insane. I started to trust my higher and authentic self. I visualized myself as her, and consciously showed up every damn day as her. Then, I changed the way I talked to myself. I affirmed, “My skin gets better every single second. I trust the healing process. I trust that whatever I need to know will be revealed to me at the right time. I let go of resentment. Everything I need comes to me in the perfect time space sequence.” My friend, trust and surrender to the universe. Let go of fear and the ego’s stories, and whenever in doubt, choose love and radical kindness to combat the darkness.