My name is Hothan. I live in Somalia, and I have ADHD. People think ADHD is just “not paying attention” or “being hyper,” but it’s so much deeper than that. I get tired for no reason. I can’t focus, even when I really try. My emotions flip without warning. I have mood swings that come out of nowhere—one minute I’m okay, the next I’m angry, crying, or completely numb. I have anger issues. I get mad fast. I react before I think. I say things I regret. I lose control and then hate myself for it later. People think I’m difficult, dramatic, or toxic—but they don’t see how much I’m fighting with myself inside. I just want peace. I want to be understood. I forget things people say right after they say them. I zone out. I talk too much, overshare, interrupt. I start projects and never finish them. I feel overwhelmed constantly. I can’t keep my space clean, can’t stay on task. I feel like a mess even when everything seems calm on the outside. And when I fall in love—it hits different. It takes over me. I get obsessed. I overthink every word, every message, every silence. I crave attention from that person so badly it physically hurts. I start doing strange things just to get noticed. I blow up their phone, create drama, beg for reassurance. I hate how clingy and emotional I get—but it’s like I lose control over my actions. Sometimes I’ve even thought about doing something crazy just to make him notice me. Like standing in front of his car or making my self hurt just so he’d come to the hospital. I haven’t done it—but the thought has crossed my mind. That’s how desperate ADHD can make you feel when your emotions spiral and no one understands. When you feel invisible, you’ll start to think of anything to just be seen. And the worst part? There’s no help. No mental health support here. No doctors. No diagnosis. No therapy. No one to explain to me what’s going on in my brain. Just silence. Just judgment. And because I’m Muslim, when I open up to someone I trust, the first thing they say is, “Just pray. Allah will fix it.” And I do pray. I cry to Allah all the time. But I also know that Allah gave us the tools to seek help. He gave us the ability to look for healing, knowledge, and support. Saying “just pray” without listening to me is not enough. I believe in Allah—but I also believe in mental health. I’m tired of pretending to be okay. I’m tired of acting like I’m normal when inside I’m breaking. I made this video because I know someone out there feels the same. Someone out there is struggling with ADHD, mood swings, obsessive love, anger, and no support. You’re not crazy. You’re not weak. You’re just fighting something most people can’t see. You’re human. And you’re not alone. We exist. We struggle. And we deserve to be heard.🩷#ADHD #fouryoupage #therapy #somalitiktok