The first photo was taken when I had an eating disorder. I was bigger than my smallest weight because I was a month into recovery. The second photo is now. Most people would think... SHE LET HERSELF GO! How did she get that big? She must be so ashamed. What a glow down. But WHAT THE FUCK DO THEY KNOW?!?. 1. fatphobia idealises only one body type that can be near impossible to maintain for many. It suggests that any other body shape is ugly. 2. I wish someone told me and showed me when I was younger that ALL BODIES ARE BEACH WORTHY, All bodies are beautiful and that I can be accepted, loved and attractive at any size. 3. My body now is the body of someone deep in recovery from an eating disorder that caused her to lose her period, vomit up blood, have loose teeth and faint. I have a body of someone who had to go on intense new medications for her mental health because she was taking action to end her life. These medications caused a lot of weight gain but saved my life. My body is beautiful not just for its strength but because of how it looks. I am proud of my body, and I love it. All shapes and all sizes, it is mine, and no matter what it looks like, I will always choose to love it, accept it and nurture it as best as I can with what I have at that time ❤️