REAL TALK MOMENT the week leading up to the new years did not feel light or like an opportunity for ‘renewal’ as we are all ushered towards. I kept wrestling with my feelings of doubt, confusion, and heaviness… I couldn’t wrap my head around my feelings as I tried to dissect the meaning of them, which only led me to spiral further 🌀 since I mentally couldn’t shake these feelings, I decided moving through them may alleviate something. I signed up for a 2 week unlimited package in my neighborhood (bc the lord knows I’m not going far in this NYC polar vortex), and got my but into a yoga class. 5 days later of consistently signing up for various movement classes on the mat I finally had a release..a sweet SWEET release of tears and overwhelming emotion in shavasana. while laying vulnerable it made me realize we really can’t ‘reset’ if we don’t release what we’re holding onto in the first place. for me it’s been a tight grip of ‘should’ paired with ‘external validation’, which led to my most recent Instagram ick and hiatus. by coming to the mat and moving in different ways this last week I finally felt permission to move for ME…intuitively, embodied, and with compassion. I found it WILD that as a teacher I needed the okay to move in this way but it’s the tale as old as time, I give so much to my classes so when it came time to give back to me I found myself becoming more rigid and avoidant in my own practice… & THATS GONNA BE A HECK NO FROM ME DAWG. so as I continue to lean into my own release I hope you too can let go of the pressure of a renewal date from external expectations to uncover whatever is holding you back, at your own pace and on your own time. …what I can say for certain after my emotional overflow is there is a high probability you may be seeing more of me on the mat this year 😏 #release #movement #matpilates #mindbodyspirit #renew