As some of you know from my story about a traumatic lack of care episode with doctor, I’m dealing with some health stuff rn. I know you all mean well but this is a blanket statement:I need to avoid people and stay at home for at least six weeks. I’ll be on here a bit (less than usual but still active)and outside at the occasional gig. There’s no other exceptions because my healing necessitates a very strict diet. I have a hard time not being festive when people I enjoy are around and i don’t want to compromise my healing. When I talk to u, I want to be near you, so I won’t be communicating much either. Following those 6 weeks, I’ll finish some MAJOR projects, that I’m tremendously excited to share with you 🌸 and I’m also excited to spend some much overdue family time. I have, 4 years, given too much of myself away because I LOVE LOVE LOVE you all and I’m not great at focusing on myself.(If you didn’t understand or see that, you never understood or saw me)I am excited to explore a sort of discipline I never have had to as a naturally successful person(don’t mean to brag)My whole life I’ve been a B+ student—my teachers groaned that I could easily get A’s if I had the discipline to do so. I frankly never had the INTEREST in discipline, nor “higher performance.” Now I do. For the first time in my life, I feel the personal spiritual support and (frankly, unexpected) community and logistical support that I need to accomplish all of my dreams. I will be an entirely different woman sooner than I know and I hope you all are as excited to meet her as I am to explore and present and perform her. In the meantime, I’ve been crying a lot and saying goodbye a lot and acknowledging loss and anger and sunk emotional costs. I am mourning and tender, but it’s clean rain. In the last weeks, I have touched and sorted 95% of my possessions. In my room I have 1 air purifier and 3 humidifiers. I’m accounting for and acclimating to my own climate... TY to everybody who I have shared space with for the last year+ since reopening amidst pandemic... but for now and I say this with all the love in the world [for myself above all others, for ONCE]: Wish me luck and leave me the FUCK alone 😘😘