“Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” (Proverbs 19:21). August has always been such a special month to me. With everything that’s been going on in my life since May, I really wanted August to be nothing short of absolute bliss. Unrealistic much? 😉 but seriously, July 27th I was journaling and praying and asking God for this month to be a really joyful and fun time with my birthday and all the festivities!!! Specifically, I asked God to keep Zak and I healthy because last year I had to cancel all my birthday plans after testing + for C (and then found out it was a false + after cancelling EVERYTHING I’d spent forever *planning*). I was determined to be HEALTHY this year—taking all of my daily vitamins, sanitizing my phone like twice a day and *over* washing my hands 🙃 In hindsight, I can see the pressure I was putting on myself to be healthy. Yet, for some reason, I still had this inward intuition that I was going to have to deal with being sick again this year. Then, what do you know—I test + for C...and this time it’s the real deal. In my time of recovering, I’ve been able to give my expectations, perfectionism, and worries to God. My constant prayer is for God’s will to supersede my fleshly wants. I’d been praying that prayer so much over the last year and even more so the last 6 months that in this time of sickness, God has become even more powerful to me. I’m uncomfortable, and that’s okay. Our God opens and shuts doors. My prayer for health was a door shut in my face. For what end? I can make a billion guesses. Even so, I feel so blessed to serve a God who hears, listens, and answers our call even when it’s not in the ways we anticipated.