this last year was overflowing with beauty and desperation and joy and pain and magic and fear and hope i discovered that it is true, that everything can in fact exist at once and more often than not, it does i screamed until my throat ached on drives spent alone in my car after work and i gasped at pretty much every sunset and sunrise i saw i laid on hotel beds and laughed with friends until i thought i might hurl, doubled over with tears trickling down my face and i sobbed quietly in my bed on many nights as i was plagued with questions that had no answers i stuck my hands in the cool wet dirt of our garden beds and pulled out carrots and onions and radishes in awe and wonder and i sat on mountainsides watching the clouds drift by as i begged the universe to tell me what the point of any of this was i do not remember what i started this year off dreaming of and planning for but i do know that moving forward my vision board only consists of me being a good and kind human and that my manifestations are just to live a life of simplicity and childlike wonder and that my dreams are merely to just accept that the only constant in life, is change and that my intentions are to be unapologetically myself to allow myself and my life with all its complexities to exist at once, just as they are intended to