you know, the inevitable waves of life is all. what i told my therapist last session was; showing up on instagram is hard. i *sometimes* see it as being in a really bad accident. everyone can clearly see my pain, the blood running down my face, the cuts, the scrapes, and the aftershock of the crash. a lot of you are watching my life and i’m over here like, i’m fine guys. hey, check out this product. it’s great and you need it! while i absolutely love what i share and only work with brands i believe in, my heart still really hurts. i’m trying to find a balance of it all. i will say, i’m doing better which is how i’m even able to show up like this. i’m not here for pity, i wanna be honest about this insane journey i’ve been on. i want you to witness the joy and the pain — i don’t think it’s fair for me to only show the “i’m healed and i’m on the other side of it” snippets. it hasn’t been easy by any means. i’m practicing vulnerability. my feelings can’t be absent when i share my experience of what’s happened. opening up on my time because i’m still processing so much as you can see. please be patient with me. i’m also trying to be patient and gentle with myself. “to be healed is to admit that you were hurt”. i was hurt and i’m talking about it because i’m CHOOSING to heal. life is good. God is good. even with the biggest waves crashing down on me. i’m the type to do whatever it takes to swim up for air. #shutthekaleup