The tired girl chronicles: a photo diary A reminder that some days are actual trash and others are full of flowers. This past 6 months have been a slow journey of allowing myself to feel safe in my emotions. I’m not someone that likes that I wear my heart on my sleeve. Those that know and love me know that I am deeply compassionate and get my feelings hurt pretty easily. I feel the energy around me & sometimes I internalize it, & it can end up all downhill from there. So I hide a lot. As I get older I realize how young in spirit but old in experience I am. I’ve seen a lot for only being 25ish. (Hi 30, we are going to skip you ✌🏼) As I’ve grown up, sometimes really freaking forcefully, I’ve realized how possible it is to say thank you for adversity. And ohhhh man do I HATE doing that. This stubborn heart in a sweet blonde girls body has clenched fists 95% of the time. As I relax them and continue to exhale, I realize how possible it is to let all the adrenaline, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, & depression leave my body. These parts of our brain we often hate can easily make a space and home all the way deep down in our gut. That’s why I consider my gut instinct to be so strong. I’ve seen some things. I won’t say I wished I hadn’t, but I will have a lot of questions on the other side of all these mountains. Your girl is tired. Even though I’m tired, I’ve never felt more young. I’ve never felt so much expansion, I’ve never felt more hope for a second half of life. The second half of life often comes with deep tragedy, and your girl hated every second of the tragedy. However, we’ve made it, we’ve climbed. And we are. still. here. I will scream that truth as loud as possible until the day I can’t any more, and I pray that when I can’t, I have influenced someone to at least have a picture of me on their wall to remember this crazy spirit by. That’s the 3rd half of life, but I’ll be sprinting and taking deep breathes until I get there. I took these over the last months because I wanted to remember that it was okay to hold grief and happiness at the same time. The last one, I was in the thick of it and I can see it in my eyes and face. We love that girl too.